Strategic Integration into a New Occupational Setting

I'm going about this new job quite differently.
The goal is to not disturb anyone and for the first good long while i'm there, for hardly anyone to know that there has been a change. It will be as if something good has been consumed and is fulfilling and rewarding and makes the body feel well taken care of.
Actually, my real goal is to hold my anxieties in check, to hold my need to "do something" in check, to not respond to any need to "demonstrate" anything, to be calm, to focus on our mission and absorb that which is there to be absorbed, as it is there to be absorbed.
All of the nuts and bolts are inconsequential. As they always are.
The system, will be learned.
if the devil is in the details, then I will leave him to it.
We will make our realm in another location.
It seems to be particularly productive to gently envision the inherent possibilities of the situation, while continuing to contemplate the human mind and condition, so as to solve the riddle of how to heal, in the hear/now, while engaging other to engage with one another.
It can not be stressed how disinterested I am in reading P&P, or studying up on forms, or procedures or how things are routed. it's about humans. communicating with them, working with them, inspiring them, helping them to evolve and change.
All of that stuff that is around and must be done and is in the drawers and cabinets and boxes is "in aid of", it is not the point, nor should it take up much of our time or focus.
Strip the whole world down, and all you have is a bunch of humans trying to live, love, raise and survive.

A Simple Balance...

Here is a simple meditation.

enter into your position and your meditation as you normally would.

then, from the moment you become comfortable, let your intent be to find a single meaningful moment of clarity and purity.
it is difficult to achieve, yet, the wild fluctuations that can occur within meditations are neutralized as a retarding element, because it makes no difference how clouded your mind was for however long it was clouded during your meditation, because your focus was only to have a meaningful moment of clarity while noticing ones breath.

it's as if a disturbed pond is bombarded by random disturbances of leaves, bugs, wind, fish, animals, dust... and yet, due to the fact that such activity is random, there is the possibility that for a meaningful moment, the disturbances will cease, the waters will still and the surface will become glassy as the bottom comes into a clear view.

so, your meditation may be only a few minutes, or 15 or 50 minutes or even longer. you may find that you fall in love with being blown upon the winds of your consciousness as you are in an ever deepening state of receptivity to a state of peace... or perhaps, you will gradually calm, but never completely calm the waters over the course of many sessions. yet, the nature o coincidence and possibility will make is such that you will at some time see the stillness of the waters and the appearance of the bottom clearly for at least a meaningful moment.

When you feel/recognize this occurrence grope with it and float around it if you can not get back to it, for as long as possible... once again, you may find that the pleasure of floating in close proximity to, yet not within peace, may be an incredibly wonderful "trantric" meditation experience. once you emerge from your meditation, do an active meditation where you note, without as little thought as possible, the difference between this feeling and it's impact upon your awareness. and, as you move further away from the meditation, allow this experience to inform the other aspects of your life, as you revel in the insights provided by plunging into this pool of calm or near calm. This will be your way to recognize the state that you have been attempting to achieve all along. As if wandering in the woods, one comes to a beautiful glen where a wondrous bird with large colored plumage, partakes of all manner of fruits, branches and beauties. You may have stumbled upon it by accident, yet, there is the possibility of return, without marring the landscape, or fearing the inability to return.

groping and harmonizing oneself to achieve this task is meaningful and conducive to ones practice, as the focus is not on having no thought, rather, on patiently and intently calming oneself to become aware of a meaningful moment of balance clarity. ones mind will be the guide.

this meditation can help to focus and at the same time, find meaning and purpose, as well as help diminish your awareness of the passing of time. In fact, this meditation uses our temporal weakness as the focus of the meditation, as well as appealing to our desire for simplicity, as well as helping one to tune into the self as the focus of the meditation.

the possibilities are endless and probably not as unlimited as the realities of the diversity of meditations that have occurred.

Osho once said, that one either meditates all the time, or not at all. there can be no such thing as meditating for a period of time. Life is a meditation. a deep welling up of wisdom, a filling up of consciousness. as we retreat from the petty or the specific or the temporary, we fall back into the overall.

I was experiencing a deep moment of joy and perfection with my children the other night to the extent that I had to ask them if there could possibly be a heaven, when the moment here, on earth was so perfect. my one child, smiling, being flip, easily and casually stated that if this moment were perfection, then his stick of cheese would turn into chocolate and the room would be fragrant as if in the midst of a flower shop. For me, his statement did not detract from the perfection, nor did it add to it, but it did bring up a simple foundational reality. The mind goes on comparing, desiring, wishing, fantasizing, whether that work is serious, flip, subtle or singular, that's what the mind does. So perfection can be all around. perfection is all around, yet, our awareness of and entry into it is held in check by the activity of the mind. And so, meditation, and this particular meditation is a skill building exercise. an exercise in groping for peace and calm, an awareness and receptivity to gauge and experience it, a pulse of ones mental activity and a point of focus that is not drifting, and perhaps in a sense more difficult to dis-entrench once achieved.

the practice evolves, the ideas evolve, the truth roll in like clouds and cool air upon the valley in a diversity matched only by our awareness of it as our minds incompletely mirror the external.

Aint That Stunning...

One of the harsh truths I had to come to terms with at the meditation retreat, was that my stunnahz just weren't that stunning.
As I looked around the room, on the meditation trails, in the lunch hall, I saw several individuals.. in fact, almost all of them had shades that were sexier, slicker, more stylish, elegant, cooler, or just plain better than mine.
mine were wick-wick-whack.
and so, in addition to the burden of attempting to empty my mind of petty thoughts as i plunged in meditation session upon meditation session, i also had to somehow neutralize the inner realization that my shades were whack.
it may sound trivial, or even petty, but it was actually incredibly disconcerting. as disconcerting as anything that could possibly happen in life. I mean, there was a lame wild turkey on the grounds, as well as a family of deer and tons of lizards, and as they looked at me, and we looked at one another in cosmic harmony, I could tell, they were subtly, in their own way, able to perceive a schism between where my shades were at, and where i wanted them to be. if there is any drawback to being in tune and in communion with nature, it's that nature can tell when your program aint together, and so you are constantly reminded.
And all the while, i knew i could have aced this one simple aspect. You see, the beauty of having truly stunning stunnahz at a silent meditation retreat, is that everyone that looks at you, knows your stunnuhz are stunning. they don't have to say anything. so to have whack stunnahz, is to have everyone know, your stunnahz are whack. there's nothing you can do. And once again, since it was a silent retreat, you can offer no explanation. Granted, to have whack stunnahz is an art all it's own, however, if the wear-ee is uncomfortable with that approach at his core, then it's impossible to pull of the whack stunnahz intent/resolutoin. sure, you can fake it, yet, once again, the point of the retreat is to be genuine, so, you can see, this predicament was a check-mate situation.
I was able to come to terms with my predicament, by promising myself to get some "real" stunnahz when i got back.
fortunately, there was a shop that sold real stunnahz next door to my new job.
and as if to re-abrade my wounds and rub salt into them, their stunnahz, which were at least 14.9 times as stunnin as mine, were going for 2 for $10.
next year, if i go back, i won't be caught unawares. I will be the cool one at the lunch hall, strolling on the paths, and kicking back, nonchalant, looking like a million bucks at the dharma talks.

The Whole Universe is Within Your Mind

Talk about a mental representation.
The entire universe is represented within your mind.
That's what young ghetto toughs mean when they say, "Represent!"

It's really just a matter of filling in the details.
It is our destiny to have our minds mirror existence.
as our minds mirror existence, our conciousness becomes the consciousness of existence.

At that point, it makes no difference if you see something "in the world" and that's how it enters your mind, or if you see it first in your mind. As a mirror of existence, the birth of happening occurs in both locations.

Once these details are attended to, you are a full shareholder in the creation of inner and outer reality.

it is generally what is meant by the saying, "see it, believe it, achieve it."

increasingly, your ability to visualize realities, results in realities being manifested.. first within your mind, and then, as your energy is loosened in action, upon the world at large. In this way, true transformation occurs.

After all, the human world and human experience is one of action and interaction, usually based upon some form of communication, whether that be from self to self, or self to others, or world to us, or us to world, that's how it happens.

and so, true transformation occurs when the "keys" to understanding are unlocked, however that may occur, however, it is my belief that the most efficient way to unlock understanding is with a locksmith. I am speaking of one who has trained their mind, and absorbed existence and harmonized their inner world with the outer, such that it mirrors existence. At that point, they can become the literal consciousness of existence, and speak from such a perspective, moving to and fro, there and here, taking on the understanding of the indivdiual they communicate with, clearing the path to their vision and enhancing their understanding, through clarifying their inner experience to also mirror that of existence, thus facilitating a resonate communication with others, such that understanding is "unlocked.

much of our reality is made up of "tools" be they writing implements, transportation devices, items to dig into and impregnate the soil, or to educate, cloth, or provide space for some activity. yet, in the final analysis, the grand playground, the causal factor, is idea, for the most part.

I've heard it said that Yoga is training of the mind. It uses the body, but it is of the mind. Yoga in fact has been said to mean, "a system of exercises for attaining bodily or mental control and well-being". but, i've heard it said that "yoga" can mean also "practice" or "a practice" whatever it may be, that achives harmony, insight and growth through any discipline.

I like to think of the ox herding series as a good representation of any practice of striving to attain. We must first control ourselves. seek that part in us, be it wisdom, control, desire, intent, passion, betterment.. whatever it may be. find it, get hold of it, tame it, refine it, move with it, and then, loosen it, such that it exists, refined, perfected, free, and we are released to become that much more complete through it's every evolving practice.

ox herding can be an analogy for our groping to achive a mirror condition of mind and existence. existence is a representation of our minds, and vice versa.

seeking the ox.

789

Today is 7-8-09... Somewhere, someone has solved the mystery of the world. The world will never be the same. 789 and the realization was 10.